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Alone again (naturally) I

I believe that I do need to state this, as the background affects what's upcoming a lot. I do have siblings and even step ones, but due to family circumstances I had to be raised as an only child.

Alone Again is going to be a series.

​I was once asked, what is the thing that you would have loved to experience in your life, if you had siblings? My answer was: To have my bro/sis knock on the door of my class and ask for me. It was kind of weird to give such an answer, but I highly believe only only child know how to it feels when the moment occurred to others, but not you (of course I do know that even those with big age gap siblings didn't experienced it as well).

I used to love school, I genuinely enjoyed my time so much, having so many kids to play around with. I used to hate it whenever the last bell rang, and it was time to go back home. Which means, time to be alone.

As a child, it used to affect much more than now, but do you know what it means to be playing on your own? Do you know what it means having no one to laugh with as a child inside your home? Do you know how it's like to only have Mom and Dad (IM VERY THANKFUL FOR THEM) as your only companions inside walls? or even travels? When you wanted to be going to amusement parks, and legit you had no one to share your rides with(unless other family friends were called for)?

I'm not saying I'm not thankful and blessed, but please keep in mind what I'm doing now is I'm sharing what I felt during those times.

You know, when I was a child. Whenever there's tension between my parents and I. I sincerely used to wish for someone to save me, or lets say يطب يطب عليي(tap my back?). I do know how a family with many siblings runs like, as I do have an experience in that as well. Again مش كل صابيعنا متل بعضا(not all your fingers are the same length?). I used to hate to be alone, the bond and the connection with siblings is something I never got to have in my life. Specially as children, since it grows with you.

It always ends up, once I'm back home. I'm Alone Again (Naturally).

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