A lot of people tend to forget this, due to personal crises issues, is what I think. For me, I see this factor as a significant factor in life, and to be honest, it’s tough to please, but simple things like belief are essential.

Religion is what I want to talk about.

Hold down your horses though; I’m not going to talk about Islam or make any comparison between Abrahamic religions.

The talk is all about believing in God’s existence, believing in your heart and soul, the higher power that even though we can’t see, but we can feel.

Soul
Heart
Brain 
Body

Are the main things here, even though 3 of them are physical, yet one of them is something that we can’t see, but we can feel.

I may look religious, I may sound religion, but I see myself as not.

“ Too halal for haram people, to haram for halal people.” 
I bet you read this somewhere here or there.

For some reason, since I’ve been young, I always tend to be more comfortable to sit with people who believe in God’s existence, even if they follow a different religion or no religion at all.

The whole beliefe just gives relief in my heart, and that what always makes me move forward.

The soul is a very dark matter, it’s like there, but you can’t see it, yet you can feel it. You could tell if someone has a kind soul deep down in them, or not. No matter how much differences we might have, yet when the soul connects, that’s everything you need.

“Always follow your heart.” 

Isn’t that something we always hear?
But what if our hearts are not connected?
What if the brain, heart, soul, and body, do not connect with each other?
Each one of them acts on its own?

Isn’t that something we somehow all suffer from?

That's when for me, the thought of God’s existence gives me solitude.

How about you?

There we are, midterms finished and finals are almost on the doors. I feel humiliated due to the fact that I didn’t post anything till now since I came to Cyprus. I did have the time and everything it’s just that I don't know how to sit and do something.

It’s tough to be motivated, and work on something till the end. With life going on it ups & downs. But, as humans, we always have to keep on thriving and push ourselves forward. It has to come from your heart, with determination, and consistency.

Here is the problem, it’s hard.

It’s tough to keep up with that determination within you, keep focused on one thing till the end. I’ve heard that this is a disease primarily for us designers, or let's say, creative people. You have that one idea in your head, but don’t know how to project it. It’s indeed tough to make a design from scratch and make it into something that can be seen, felt, not even heard. But, in the end whenever you look at your work in its final stages and final project, is probably the happiest moment of our creative life.

Then, the feedback comes, wither you can pull it up, or it can pull you down. But, the bad feedback is what you need in your life, especially if it’s from someone famous in the field. 

This is where the story starts. 

“ your daughter can be on the top of her class if she wants to” - Ms. Ola (Grade 4)

“ your daughter doesn’t need me as her tutor; she just needs to sit and finish her work “ -​​ Ms. Eman (private tutor)

“ I’m shocked, I remembered who you are from your sketches, you’re 1 of the seven people who we see have potential”. -Ms. Naz (first semester)

“you have the talent
you have what it takes
you have the equipment
you are just very unfocused” - 3 of my respected instructors

The same words.
I heard again and again, since the day I was born.

Then questioning myself starts degrading me.
What do they see in me that I can’t see?

Well, I guess one of my attributes is.
If I fall, I rise.
If I stumble, I crawl.
If I failed, I learn.

It will never end here; a project is a project that can either lead you somewhere or sink you deeply.
This where the trick is.

Just because I keep on getting the same feedback over and over again, it doesn't mean I am going to fall. It just honestly pushes me forward into pushing myself more, even if it cost me my own life.

I will prove to myself before convincing myself to anyone; this is my aim, my destination.