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BREAK

I'm not gonna say it was an extremely long break, but it was an oddly unthinkable one, that became a part of my life all of a sudden. A break from somehow social media I decided to take, for one sole purpose, to test myself.

The last story I ever shared on Instagram or snapchat was on the 4th of April, even though I did by mistake share twice on snapchat, yet when I noticed I deleted them. To be honest, snapchat is almost dead, with all of these unnecessary updates. Now let’s get back to why I tested myself, and testing is something I tend to do very often. 

Some people come to me and tell me that they enjoy my SC & IG snap/stories, while some other tend to use them as a way to stalking and checking where I am, where I’ve been etc. Another thing some of them won’t even say hello, and just check the stories for God knows what purposes they have. Don’t you guys think that we’ve become a very shallow society?

The whole thing of sharing stories is something that we’ve become very addicted to. We just want to show where we are, who we are, how creative/uncreative we are, look at me how cool I am, check how hot/sexy I am, check my abs, and how much I splurge, blah blah blah.

Didn’t the stories become just a routine that we have to check almost every day (including myself)? Caring how many people saw it, and especially if certain people did see it. It became a way of us sending a salty message to someone or even let’s say throwing some shade in a silent visual way.

I woke up one day and decided am not showing anything. After few weeks people though I blocked them, while others asked if am okay. To be honest I was sharing some private snaps to people who are very close to my heart. I mean come on, some stories can’t be missed.

I have no idea if am going to go back into sharing stories or snaps publicly, it’s merely the fact that I’m enjoying the privacy that I am having, and let’s be honest Jeddah is somehow boring. It’s not like I’m with my friends 24/7, or am even capable of opening the door and leaving whenever I want. So most of the snaps/stories are all about my Xbox, and coffee.

I really am so sorry for not always updating my blog, but a lot has been going on. Mentally and physically exhausted. It’s hard for me to stay on track, and keep focused. Yet, now that it is summer, it’s the summer of change. (binge-watching friends all over again in case you’re interesting, very productive eh?)

"It Got Me Thinking" - Illustration by Asma Haddad ©