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CONCEALER

I woke up one day on a sunny morning, and I questioned myself.
Why do we tend to feel good whenever we feel the sunlight!
Is it because the sun is the main source of energy for this world!
Or is it something we are mechanized to feel?

The happy beats makes us cheerful.
Although sad songs makes us sorrowful.
A smile from a friend can bring us joy.
While a flower will make our day.

BUT
we tend to try our best to conceal these emotions. WHY?
because we think that it is the right thing to do. WHY?
it’s almost like a weakness to show your emotions. WHY?
or maybe we just think we are cool that way. WHY?
most likely we read something online. WHY?
it’s just a fucked up society.

Just like how we use concealer to hide dark circles, or a pimple that popped up in the middle of our forehead. We just want to hide, and cover our faces, hearts, and souls. Sometimes whenever I listen to old opening/ending themes of cartoons I’ve watched when I was young, and think to myself “what happened?”. To be honest with each and everyone of you who’s reading, I never really thought that it would be really this fucked up when I grow up. But, one thing that I was pretty sure off, is the fact that I’m fucked up.

Everyday before I sleep,  I always ask myself “why?”. I never get an answer, because obviously the wall on my right, and the ceiling won’t reply back. I don’t even want to know the answer, I just conceal them inside of me, and keep them in the back of my head. 

Why do we feel good whenever we have a productive day? Achieved something? 
Why do we feel that we are born for something? For a certain purpose ?
Many questions will be asked, but let’s be honest to one another. There’re no definite answer. BUT, it’s unquestionable that some steps lead you to something, and BAM! it’s that thing. That THING that makes you happy or your heart clinches so hard, even the opposite. Instinct? hunch? no idea, it’s just there. 

The problem is, concealing. I think that before I point my fingers on anyone, I might be the biggest concealer, and a person that lives in a bubble.
Because, it’s just a very harsh world to begin with, and not everyone is actually living in harmony of sharing their real emotions etc. 

I call it “The State Of Concealed Hierarchy of Emotions”.

There’s that bubble, that is very hard to pop.
I think it will never pop.
But, certain actions, and things make it open up a little.

We just want to stay concealed, I guess.





just a reminder to everyone, you are not a doormat.

Photo courtesy of  Asma Haddad ©