My 6th semester just finished, and it feels super weird. It was like a flash, as I am right now sitting on the plane heading back home, it just feels like I’m actually about to go to my University from summer vacation. Everything was rapid, I don’t even know how to handle it. Now that I just finished my junior year, and am about to be a senior, it just feels sad. I’m not very happy about it, yet shit is real, and life has to move on.
As I mentioned to my bestie Ann a few days back, that this semester was my second favorite out of all the entire semesters, I have spent over there. It was loud, and quite. Ups and downs. Solitude and fellowship. Experience and ignorance. Work and dormancy. Aggression and pacifism. These are just a few words that describe how the semester went.
I had visions, not about aliens, not about the future, but ideas of how my projects should look like. I have finally become one with my field, I have finally started to think visually like pro Illustrators. Not on the same level, but I did do few works, where I just had the idea in my head, sketched, and then ta-da it’s digital. I have always had a thing for computer graphics, I’ve always believed that Art is my thing, this is why I never swayed, or even turned my eyes to anything else. In case you don’t know, I’m currently majoring in Visual Arts and Visual Communication Design.
Now here’s the thing one of the projects, that I have done is called Citizens of the World. I believe that some of you only bothered, to open this site, just to grab their photos, and you have every right too. Guess what? Even though I’m writing this on the 13th of Jan, but it will be uploaded Inchallah on the 15th just as promised. As you are reading this, if your picture was taken, please go to the Work page, which you can find it up on top of the page. You will see your picture there, and if you want it in color, please email me with your picture in small size, then I will email you the colored one.
It all starts with a push, not from anyone, but from yourself. You are the only one who can push yourself to do something. Even if you did something to someone else, you do it because “you” love them, and you don’t want anything in return. You just act that way because you appreciate, what you have for them. Respect is something that is very rare nowadays but let me tell you this. I recently discovered that sometimes I do things not out of respect to the person, but out of me respecting my feelings towards that person. You see, you need to start seeing your inner being, and start understanding who you are from the inside out. Bring peace to yourself, by your salutations to yourself.
I’m sorry for always talking about “you,” yourself, and oneself. However, I’ve noticed recently that most of us forgot the fact that the society is making us drift from who we indeed are, and what purpose we wanted to do. It’s like we are all in this void, forgetting to put time for ourselves, and discover our real potential.
I guess this is it for now, and by the way, this was the very first time I ever write any of my blogs on the computer immediately, without any paper draft. I guess technology will be taking over me soon; I hope not.
Until next blog...
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YOU, YES YOU.
There’s something so beautiful about _______________.
I wrote this statement a while back on Facebook, yet no one could fill it.
There’s something so beautiful about sitting alone.
The very first step you take as your stomach is growling for food and your brain is in desperate need of coffee.
You look around for some of your friends to accompany you, but then they are very busy. So you decide to take a bigger step and go to the restaurant alone.
As you’re walking there, you start having a lot of doubts, and insecurity starts hitting you up. What are people going to say, if any of them I know saw me sitting alone, what are they going to think? How would I look like to the society? A loner? Pathetic? Anti-Social?
You still buckle yourself up and reach the restaurant, you hold the tray get some food, a drink and you’re done. Now comes the hard which is sitting, most of the single people will search for the most cornered table, and sit there, all alone.
Can you imagine how beautiful this is for me?
Indulging in the society without having anyone else around, you in your world, gazing at everyone, thinking about many things that are inside of your head. Trying to connect the dots on every table that is occupied within that small space. Attempting to understand what is going on around you, watching people come and go. Eating slowly, while sipping your drink, hearing your mouth as it is doing the action. Isn’t that just you, a cell, in this big world?
Sometimes you put your earphones on, to listen to music, or like me a podcast. If you want to have the full experience you need to not listen to anything other than the real world. Feel the air as it hits, people talking, the clicking of the forks, the sound “KA-CHAK” as they place their coffee back on the tables. Enjoy every moment, and every sound you hear.
Don’t worry about if people will judge you or not because even if they did let’s say, is it gonna change anything for you? Is it gonna solve the whole idea of the dark matter? It will do nothing more nothing less. Society is nothing; you’re everything.
Believe in yourself, start by understanding who you’re, spend some time alone with yourself. Because “you” what matters the most. So what if you’re sitting alone? Can’t a person enjoy their own company? Of course, you can.
Sitting alone can boost your self-confidence, because when you understand “you” there’s a lot of magical things will happen. Have faith and believe in yourself.
Because “you” will always
be there for “you.”
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hello there 2018
and my kisses shall say my goodbyes to 2017
What a year, 2017 for me it already started in the weirdest way possible, yet thank God I still survived, in a way or another.
As everyone says, it was a rollercoaster, and indeed it was.
I went through many episodes, of all kinds.
Different phases, different moods, various friends, and different people.
I had a lot of “ change of mind “ kind of thoughts, for example, I always used to think that age plays a significant role of how mature a person can be, but thanks to some of you for proving me wrong.
I got betrayed, and stabbed in the back (Julius Cesar kind of thing), multiple times too.
I got good grades and bad grades.
I got into a one-sided “fight,” reassure the fight is not from my side.
I had the chance to work for the very first time in my entire life.
I got to know my twin too.
Unfortunately, I cannot share everything. But here’s what I’ve learned.
First things first, know who you trust.
Trust plays a huge factor in any important kind of ______ship. Know who you surround yourself with, can you bluntly say things out loud, or would the next morning be breaking news for you?
I know that sometimes we can’t help ourselves but overthink things like a million times per second. We need to learn the art of not giving a fuck, and just letting things go. But, don't’ let serious things go, I’m talking about silly and stupid things, stuff that won’t benefit you in any way. Life is too short to waste your brain cells on stupid shit.
This took me years to learn how to hold my composure, yet it was worth every sweat and tear. Holding oneself, from emotion to everything is very hard, even though you might mess it up sometimes because you’re a human being, and we make mistakes. But, let me give you a hint, learn how to stay calm, it helps.
The list can go on and on, yet as some of these trending memes say, I still got problems from 2012, but a bitch ain’t one.
2018 have already entered, and for some reason, I don’t feel good about it. But I still gotta stay wide awake and accept or decline things as they are.
One of my resolutions is to read 24 books; I have a blank canvas to fill up.
I guess the second is to be a stronger person, dare to be different.
The third would be to put my work and studies as my priority.
In the end, I would like to thank my viewers and those who bother to read what I write. Special thanks to those who stood by my side during my breakdowns ( you know yourselves). Thank you too for those who thought they humiliated me ;). Thank you Mom and Dad, and thank you God for everything <3. Thank you 2017 for teaching me a very valid lesson: Try to turn your head back every once in a while, and check how’s the weather there.
A lot of people tend to forget this, due to personal crises issues, is what I think. For me, I see this factor as a significant factor in life, and to be honest, it’s tough to please, but simple things like belief are essential.
Religion is what I want to talk about.
Hold down your horses though; I’m not going to talk about Islam or make any comparison between Abrahamic religions.
The talk is all about believing in God’s existence, believing in your heart and soul, the higher power that even though we can’t see, but we can feel.
Are the main things here, even though 3 of them are physical, yet one of them is something that we can’t see, but we can feel.
I may look religious, I may sound religion, but I see myself as not.
“ Too halal for haram people, to haram for halal people.”
I bet you read this somewhere here or there.
For some reason, since I’ve been young, I always tend to be more comfortable to sit with people who believe in God’s existence, even if they follow a different religion or no religion at all.
The whole beliefe just gives relief in my heart, and that what always makes me move forward.
The soul is a very dark matter, it’s like there, but you can’t see it, yet you can feel it. You could tell if someone has a kind soul deep down in them, or not. No matter how much differences we might have, yet when the soul connects, that’s everything you need.
“Always follow your heart.”
Isn’t that something we always hear?
But what if our hearts are not connected?
What if the brain, heart, soul, and body, do not connect with each other?
Each one of them acts on its own?
Isn’t that something we somehow all suffer from?
That's when for me, the thought of God’s existence gives me solitude.
How about you?
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THE SAME WORDS
There we are, midterms finished and finals are almost on the doors. I feel humiliated due to the fact that I didn’t post anything till now since I came to Cyprus. I did have the time and everything it’s just that I don't know how to sit and do something.
It’s tough to be motivated, and work on something till the end. With life going on it ups & downs. But, as humans, we always have to keep on thriving and push ourselves forward. It has to come from your heart, with determination, and consistency.
Here is the problem, it’s hard.
It’s tough to keep up with that determination within you, keep focused on one thing till the end. I’ve heard that this is a disease primarily for us designers, or let's say, creative people. You have that one idea in your head, but don’t know how to project it. It’s indeed tough to make a design from scratch and make it into something that can be seen, felt, not even heard. But, in the end whenever you look at your work in its final stages and final project, is probably the happiest moment of our creative life.
Then, the feedback comes, wither you can pull it up, or it can pull you down. But, the bad feedback is what you need in your life, especially if it’s from someone famous in the field.
This is where the story starts.
“ your daughter can be on the top of her class if she wants to” - Ms. Ola (Grade 4)
“ your daughter doesn’t need me as her tutor; she just needs to sit and finish her work “ - Ms. Eman (private tutor)
“ I’m shocked, I remembered who you are from your sketches, you’re 1 of the seven people who we see have potential”. -Ms. Naz (first semester)
“you have the talent
you have what it takes
you have the equipment
you are just very unfocused” - 3 of my respected instructors
The same words.
I heard again and again, since the day I was born.
Then questioning myself starts degrading me.
What do they see in me that I can’t see?
Well, I guess one of my attributes is.
If I fall, I rise.
If I stumble, I crawl.
If I failed, I learn.
It will never end here; a project is a project that can either lead you somewhere or sink you deeply.
This where the trick is.
Just because I keep on getting the same feedback over and over again, it doesn't mean I am going to fall. It just honestly pushes me forward into pushing myself more, even if it cost me my own life.
I will prove to myself before convincing myself to anyone; this is my aim, my destination.
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I am angry I am very angry I am angry at you at society and mostly at myself and if you want to know the Reason why it may take time but I will say few words that may help you understand.
I am sorry that I am angry at you but I can’t help it I can’t help it but be angry at myself for being angry at you maybe cause I am angry at myself I am angry for been me for not keeping my Promises
I couldn’t keep my first promise ever to my mother that I will be one day the president of the world or for breaking my promise to my love that I will always love her or the one that I told my best friend that we will always be best friends “God have mersy on your soul” and I remember giving a promise to pure soul that one day we will meet again I am sorry “A” I don’t think I can keep this one either and the most thing I am angry about is the society I am angry cause I can’t adapt with my surrounding and that I can’t change my color I am angry at the looks from their eyes toward me and the way they behave next to me like I am kind of black cheep and that I am cursed and if they got close to me they will get cursed the same and I am angry that I can’t blame them I choose this life I choose to be me and I am angry that I did
Did you know that I am angry at the sun I am causing the day my brother died he was up in the sky and it was so bright more than ever been in my life I hated sunshine since that day.
What else I am angry about?? Oh yes I am angry that I was a soldier and that I hold the weapon and thought that I am fighting for something I am angry that I have been used like chess piece and then thrown away and also angry that I couldn’t be a good soldier and couldn’t protect anything or anyone I couldn’t protect my country my family or my friends I watched all burn and did not move.
Maybe now u have Idea why I am that angry and PS ”I am angry for writing this words”
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Hello, everyone, I guess it’s been a month since the last time I posted something of my own. I decided to share some of my amazing friend's thoughts because sometimes reading the thoughts of others, heals you secretly inside.
Well, firstly I would love to congratulate those who did hajj, secondly Happy belated Eid. As you can see summer is over for most us, although mine didn’t end yet.
I will hopefully dedicate a whole blog for this summer because I experienced a lot of my “first times”.
But for this blog, it’s going to be for something else. Let’s say this blog is for someone who is very dear to my heart.
Furthermore, please read the words that are spilled from my heart.
I remember vividly the very first time we sat together, although unfortunately, that place closed down for good.
Nevertheless, it holds a lot of memories of ours.
“What do you think of the LGBTQ ?”
As I answered, I know right away that I’ve found her, the person that I’ve always been searching for.
A person who won’t judge me, or judge my thoughts, the thoughts that I’ve kept hiding for too long.
Because I know that I come from a society that is very judgmental just for being different.
Our minds clicked.
We started hanging out.
We enjoyed the silent moments that we shared at our favorite cafe called Gloria.
We were both new to this independent world.
We backed each other up.
And believed in each other.
She was better than me in putting her feelings into words, I guess I always went to her to hear the things that I needed the most. She was there for me.
Her existence alone made me feel safe.
She was my guardian angel.
Thus far, sometimes any friendship can have a quarrel, I selfishly decided that we both need a break to sort our feelings and thoughts out.
I became disoriented.
I was slowly drifting away from my guardian angel. However, she was always on my mind.
I was at Makkah, and as I was doing Duaa.
She popped into my head.
I'm not the sweetest person, in fact, I'm arrogant and very apprehensive.
I like hearing the negativity, and face things head on, call me a violent person. I don’t care.
The only thing I had in my mind was, I need her.
I decided to solve things between us because we both are meant for each other.
We came back stronger than we used to be.
I mean how can you survive without your best friend?
You just can’t.
I stumbled again,
again, and again.
We didn’t fight or any of that sort.
Simply, we don’t hang out as much as we used to do, and that really bothers me. I enjoy our hangouts the most. ( although we literally text each other 24/7 )
Lastly, I would apologize for anything that I’ve ever done that would have bothered you by any chance. I'm really sorry for not saying these words out loud, but you know better than anyone else. I live on by trying to deny my feelings. But I would never deny my feelings towards you.
Sincerely your friend,
BFF, and sister.
Being thankful is something most people seem to forget about , being grateful and feeling happy is very rare these days. This topic have been discussed many times before yet not many learn from it.
I have realized over the past year the I don't appreciate the blessings that i have in my life enough and that made me feel selfish and ungrateful. It is human nature to always want more , maybe it comes off as greediness nevertheless , we wish good things for ourselves whether it be fashionable clothes, expensive cars or vacations every now and then . It isn't necessarily bad neither a good thing.
A holiday every year might be a normal thing for you but a much unfortunate person considers traveling every three to four years as a luxury. Allah said (لئن شكرتم لازيدنكم) which translates to " If you are grateful , i will add more ( favours ) unto you", simple as that. Don't think you're superior to others because you have a better car model or alot richer, nothing lasts forever be thankless and you will be left with nothing but regret.
Truly appreciate what you have and always wish the best for others. Arrogance never benefited anyone.
Written By: Nujood Faiz
The title can be read as “Bint Trump” and it is Arabic for “Trump’s Daughter”, specifically Ivanka Trump. This hashtag has been internationally a trending topic on twitter in regards to the United States’ president Donald Trump’s visit, along with his daughter and many others from his administration, to Saudi Arabia to attend the Riyadh Summit, which hosted leaders and representatives of 55 Arab and/or Muslim countries and the United States of America apparently.
To cut a long story short, Ivanka Trump has received the official title of assistant to the president.She’s now accompanying her father and his team on his international tour. She is an active business woman and a mother of three. However, when she set foot on the respectful Saudi Arabian lands, she was not spared from social media comments. Twitter users in Saudi Arabia tweeted captions to her photos that were tweeted under the aforementioned hashtag. It was as if Saudi twitter have never seen a female before.
Saudi’s be like #بنت_ترامب : pic.twitter.com/3A4to8Wo2l
— Maryam Albanna (@Maryamiialbanna) May 21, 2017
Their eyes :#بنت_ترامب pic.twitter.com/iE9xBlFSHY
— Hasan Sari (@HasanSari7) May 20, 2017
Now let’s start with the least of our concerns. This is a simple reminder that if people were to imagine this happening to any other random female, it would be considered a form of harassment, and clearly it isn’t any different with Ivanka Trump, the President of the United States of America’s own adult married daughter. Women around the world of all ages, religions, and ethnic backgrounds are condescendingly treated under the justification of their gender. Unfortunately, social media further provides an outlet for such patriarchal concepts to flourish.
Speaking of condescending treatment, Arabs have a long history of continuously objectifying and belittling their women to their outer appearance with little to no regard of their achievements. Moreover, Arabs have an obsession with the Eurocentric beauty standards that is quite difficult for our Arab genes to put together, not to mention the scorching sun that has kissed our skin from birth. For example, it is well-known that in Arabic culture, a girl of fair skin is most likely to be treated better and experience favouritism over her darker skinned sisters. She tends to be a “product of pride” to her family only because of her skin colour and not because of any particular achievement in school, sports, etc. People’s obsession with the POTUS’s daughter further promotes my argument. All (yes, not most, but all) the comments are about how beautiful, white, hot, and wife-material Ivanka Trump is. It isn’t about how professional and competent she is as a business woman.
Needless to say, the same people who are praising (and by that I mean harassing) Ivanka over her outer beauty are the same patriarchs who oppress, speak over, and cover their women in the name of religion. It’s the very same system that has called out the four Saudi female Olympic players for participating in the 2016 Rio Olympics. This is the culture that claims that the female body belongs to the state, family, and her husband, but never to the female herself. Such oppressive techniques are normalised in this region on our civilized planet in the year of 2017. Ivanka Trump showed up not wearing a headscarf and was respected for it, but God forbids if the Saudi sprinter, Sarah Attar, wanted to race in London and Rio without a headscarf, knowing that she plays in America with shorts and tank tops. People would discuss that Trump is not a Muslim but Attar is, which only strengthens my stand on how the culture is oppressing their people under the name of religion.
As a female who identifies as a Muslim Arab, I believe I am entitled to declare that the men of our culture were indoctrinated by patriarchs from birth. In laymen’s terms, this is what’s wrong with our culture. This is what’s wrong with our society. Calling harassment as the “least of our concerns” above is proper sarcasm because all women’s issues should matter to everyone. Women are not respected for who they are, but for how they look like and how much skin they show. Practicing such behaviours on daily basis has numbed the people’s perspective on how wrong this is. Finally as naively hopeful as that sounds, acknowledging a dire problem is the first step to seeking radical change to help elevate the rank of women in the Arab community.
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“They say home, is where the heart is
but my heart is, wild and free
so am I homeless, or just heartless?
It is believed that all greatest things in life happen unexpectedly, you never predict what turns your world upside down. Our greatest fault is that we think we know what will happen but it has never been that way and it will never be.
I love you, seems about right doesn’t it ? but is it truly what we look for when seeking such emotion?
What if the simple things, things movies and novels don’t highlight, I strongly believe its such things that we should hold on to. Is it possible we have been mislead by all the on screen romance?
Because after a load of experiences, it hits you when you don’t expect it. Its that simple “drive safe”text that made me realize I found home. And after many doubts and long nights of life sucking overthinking I have found home, home is that one person you go back and confide to, home could be the one thing that person says that makes you feel sane even when the world makes you feel like you have lost it, home is the text you get that makes you feel like nothing can break you and that someone actually cares for you in a way a thousand gifts or an I love you would never suffice.
I found home in her and all the little things she does, one look into her ocean deep eyes are enough to make me invincible and I thank god for her every day I go to sleep knowing what I was blessed with, Home.
Written By: OMN
The title speaks for itself, you get it already what this blog is about. It's about people feeling inferior whenever they share, or do something of their own.
You are mainly scared of getting judged by others, or what's even more funny, you are scared for an argument to start just because you spoke.
As a person who actually loves arguing, and negotiating. I love hearing others opinions, I love pissing everyone to hear what they would say. Trust me the moment a person is pissed, is the split second they will show their real faces. So, don't be frightened or get pissed when someone around you is mad, instead stay calm and watch them burn.
"Just be who you are, share your opinion, wether it's wrong or right... If it's wrong learn from your mistake, it it's right, then you are one lucky M*THERF*CKER " - AH * yea now I've started quoting myself*
Let's say if we all believe in individualism, then basically we are all odds? right ? The number 1 is never even. How do you expect people to understand if we are all number 1 ?
Sometimes people say : you have to put yourself in other people shoes. When you spoke did you put yourself at his/her shoes ? Did you listen to yourself before even talking ? *I should take note for myself too*
Planet earth is pretty much over populated, so how do you expect yourself, yes you #1, to make everyone love/like, accept/agree what you said?
Well now let's go back to the title which mainly said " People Hate What They Don't Understand ".
Did you start getting the vibe from it ?
It generally means not everybody is like you... If you are an open-minded person, an understanding person, that means you are super lucky to have those traits.
You can't judge and think people are just like you.
You are a person
You've got your own soul
You've your own life
Your own name
You are who you are.
That's something I keep on telling myself, specially know recently since I've got a bigger circle, and deal with loads of people. Always remember to Thank God for all the blesses he gave you, Stay ambitious, and move forward.
LAST DAYS OF RAMADAN 2016
Ramadan is the month of discipline, the month to reflect to our sins, and the month that God specifically said that it's for him.
Ramadan is not only to feel how the poor feel starvation, it's to feel, and feed them too. The month that you should give Zakat ( alms-giving ) as Eid ( Muslim Holiday, right after Ramadan ) is approaching.
The month that Muslims read the Quran all over, the month of many prayers, like Taraweh, and Qaim Al-Lail .
This year I welcomed Ramadan while I was having my finals, back in Cyprus. It really felt weird as I was alone, and this was my second time welcoming it all alone. *missed mama et( and ) papa kteer (so much) :( *
Yet, this just show much of an adult I have became. *since we are fed everything by a golden spoon, hamdllah*. Although I wouldn't deny that welcoming Ramadan with your family is the best. *God bless them*
Eid is almost there, and it's a very festive Holiday.
I wish for everyone a year full of succes, and prosper.
P.S this is a link that I really like from BuzzFeed, hope you enjoy it too.*press on the BuzzFeed ;)*
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READY... SET.. JUST DO IT!
YET, THE MOMENT YOU WILL SEE YOUR RESULTS ARE PAYING OFF. IS THE REAL MOMENT THAT YOU WILL ENJOY FOR LIFE.
WORKING AND ACHIEVING RESULTS, IS WHAT AM CURRENTLY AIMING FOR.
AND WHEN I SAID CURRENTLY, WHAT I MEAN IS THAT IAM THE TYPE OF PERSON THAT HAVE SHORT-TERM GOALS(we will talk about that later on).
SOME OF US GET REALLY DETERMINED THE MOMENT THEY SMELL COFFEE*gasps*, WHILE OTHERS I BELIEVE NEED OTHERS TO PUSH THEM FORWARD.
" Years of hard work, discipline, and determination will make you an overnight success " -David Castillo
I WILL SHARE A VERY RECENT LIFE EXPERIENCE, THAT HAPPENED LAST SEMESTER.
After I finished my second semester, and my results came out. I realized how much my grades dropped unconditionally, and I went into that stage were I was so in shock. But, I didn't go into depression( although I did slightly ), I went into that determination stage were the only thing I had in my mind was gaining that Honor Status " Dean's List ".
Last semester was the payback for my second, and that's what exactly I've done. I worked my ass off ( excuse the language ) to gain it, and thank GOD, I did. Hamdulilah
THAT WAS A SHORT EXAMPLE OF SO MANY.
THE QUESTIONS THAT YOU SHOULD ASK YOURSELF.
- Are you determined enough ?
- Are the people around you helping you up ? or are they pushing you down?
- Are you giving it your all ? ( time e.g)
DETERMINATION IS BOTH A MENTAL, AND PHYSICAL STATUS.
IN THE END, BE DETERMINED.
IF YOU AREN'T, THEN try.
I CAN'T STAY AWAY FROM YOU
I CAN'T STAY NEXT TO YOU
It's like you're on a boat, in the middle of the North Pacific Ocean, and you don't know whether you go to Japan, or the US. Two very different countries, different cultures, deferent language, so many different things. * takes a breathe * But in the end you will choose the place were you will find peace of your mind, and heart.
The same thing goes with any word that end with -ship. Friendship, relationship, for me those two are the hardest things to maintain. I really think about it so much before giving it a thing or two, I just can't leave it alone. My heart just starts getting cold, and my mind starts detesting the person. It's a very love, hate type of issue. But, the thing is I don't think that there's anything wrong with me, this is just how we as human function.
Humans tend to always loose interest in things, and in others after some quite time. Those who still maintain their love, and interest in others are the ones who are at wrong. I till now cannot understand how can two people get married, and say till death do us apart. Umm like excuse me, you want me to understand that I will remain like a prisoner just with one person ? *pfft*
How boring is that? Yes, it's very obvious I'm a woman with no commitment, a cold-hearted, and I believe I'm somehow asexual.
There's always that inner thing that tells you not to let go, but deep inside of me I just say * don't act like you care *. Exactly I don't.
In the end, just like a book, it's going to be filled again with words about your previous -ships. ANother life experience, for me it's better off to leave first.
Citizens Of The World